im baaaack

sorry for being gone so long. its been pretty busy and stressful around here. im now 15 1/2 weeks prego and we have our gender scan the 19th. really looking forward to it. went to the ER on the 15 because my cervix had softened and i was bleeding a bit…Jackie says everything is ok tho. she really thinks im going to be ok. the baby is doing good and i got to hear the heartbeat a couple weeks ago (finally)! Jordan was DJ Lance Rock for halloween and Josh sported his “drill instructor” costume…basically his Marine Corp uniform with a fake helmet. Mike and Heather and the kids came over and watched Paranormal Activity. Tessa was a flower and Hunter was a pilot. Josh and Jordan recently have mohawks and ive lost a LOT of weight. will update with Christmas photos when i can. :) the last 4 months as quick as possible in pictures LOL

Mommys baby

Everyone at Thanksgiving

3 of us at Thanksgiving

Jordan and Josh

  Jordan in front of the tree

Last but not least….my 15 week belly

CHAOS!!!

so, the last few weeks have been pure chaos. we moved into a house and we are PREGNANT! yay, thank you god. things are well. changing medications from amitriptyline to celexa (its safer) not much else going on :) will post some pictures :D

 

 

 

lately

 

 

insert 2 videos here. sigh

 

 

 

8-6-09

so i had an interesting day yesterday. after i got the downstairs guy to turn down his music (he barely turned it down and its loud AGAIN today) i dealt with jordans almost constant temper tantrum and then nearly avoided a fire! sometimes when i get jordan up i let him run to the kitchen since he never gets to go in there. i guess at some point he turned on the heated dry on the dishwasher and i didn't know it. i kept smelling what i thought was hot dot. sometimes if smelled like fire but i could not figure out where it was coming from and i didn't hear any fire alarms from other apartments. i finally open the dishwasher and tons of smoke and steam came out of it. turns out a wooden spoon fell down and jammed against the heating element and was charred on one side. i reran an rinse cycle to get rid of any smoke or toxins on the dishes and went on but it was definitely a wakeup call. ill pay more attention to the settings on the dishwasher from now on. josh brought home kfc and jordan liked it!!! i really didn't think he would like just plain old grilled chicken but he decided to surprise me and actually eat some lol. josh seems to really be feeling better. he's having less issues with it. I'm really hoping him being on the naproxen will help him to feel better again. i cant understand why they stopped giving him it! next thing I'm going to work on is his stomach. i think he should go back to his doc and get back on reflux medicine. he should try to get them to prescribe nexium or protonix. I'm sure he will feel so much better. he needs to feel good again, i know his health is really starting to bog him down and when he's down I'm down. i don't like to worry about him. my birthday is tomorrow, it doesn't feel like it. we are supposed to go up to moms this weekend but josh doesn't know if he's going to have off. i hope so since they are throwing the party and everything but if i don't have a way up there then I'm kind of stuck. id really like to go!

day in galveston

took jordan to a park and the beach. he had a blast!

more video of my silly child

this will be a long one

the last few months have been chaotic to say the least. things have been really good with my new family members, ive really enjoyed my time visiting everyone. weve been trying to keep a positive attitude through all these layoffs. we want to move north but im not sure itll be any time soon. we know josh's job here isnt permanent but the pay is good and i feel like we need to keep this income for as long as we can. hopefully someday soon i can be closer to my family we can at least try to visit more often until then. jordan started walking around by himself the beginning of june and has been non stop ever since. now that he can run he plays hard all day, im glad he is so happy. hes growing up so fast, i dont even remember him being little anymore. thank goodness i took lots of pictures. i wish i had taken more... i had oral surgery on tuesday, they took a complete bony impacted wisdom tooth and 2 molars. my packing fell out on accident this morning and a stitch came out so im hurting a little more than i was. hopefully this wont cause a dry socket or cause it to take longer to heal. i have my follow up with them this coming tuesday. i also have an appointment to meet with a therapist (finally!)so i can try to get my mind and body back under control again. sure, this year has been 400X better than last year but im still no where near where i want to be. im so tired of it, its silly really. i sit my butt in there on the bathroom floor playing free cell and just waiting for my body to flip back to normal from a panic attack. i have no control over when i get one or when it goes away...all i can do is wait it out. im tired of it ruling my life. the psychiatrist that i have been seeing (she does not do therapy) is leaving her residency and i am having to start fresh with a new psychiatrist so i thought it was time to find someone to help me figure this thing out. well, i guess ill attach a few photos to this and end it here. i really thought i had more to say...

miserable

between my pain and jordan being sick i only got like 3 hours of sleep last night. id rather be in labor than have this nerve pain. did i show yall my xray?? ill post it. so far jordan hasnt puked up his jello today..im crossing my fingers its over. i went to sleep at 930 last night and couldnt get rid of the pain so i could sleep until around midnight. at 230 jordan started crying so i had to go tend to him. i ended up with a panic attack that lasted until josh went to work at 6 and then i finally was able to sleep for a bit until jordan got up. im so miserable. i want to have the surgery today, right this second. i dont know how much longer i can keep this up.



maybe today ill get motivated to post pictures and news to get everyone caught up :)

jordan: the last 18 months

weekend at moms

had a great time out there, cant wait to go back! jordan had a blast and it was so nice to see everyone :) thanks for having us!

walking!!! hes so cute!

jordan walking!!!

brush burn

we went over to the inlaws this past saturday to clear out some trees and brush from the pasture and burn it. the kids all got to play in the pool and stuff and we bbq'd. we had a good time but boy was it hot. jordan didnt care for the pool too much. he got a few gulps and it was freezing cold. he spent most of the time in the pool crying.